The goods, bads, in betweens and understandings.

Originally, I was going to dedicate this post to my entire Thanksgiving weekend.  That would be my Wednesday-Sunday of last week.  No secrets about it.  But I’ve decided that’s not all I’m going to focus on.  I will post some photos and share some details about my weekend but I want to share how happy/thankful/grateful I am for the people in my life.  This last week has seemed to open my eyes to how truly blessed I am and I can’t ignore that.

But to start my weekend:  A drive to Sioux City watching the rain turn to drizzle and then to ice, on my car.  Upon my arrival my little sister Dani and I had a bit of a photo shoot.  

I had to catch up on the, apparently, new ‘cool’ wear-your-pony-on-the-top-of-your-head hairstyle.  (I beg to differ)  Thanksgiving eve and day were filled with tons of cooking and baking.  And after thanking God for the many blessing we all shared that day, my mama Teri, sister Dani, and sister Chabree and her boyfriend Travis and I got to enjoy all of our hard work.  I must say, no offense to Gma Mary, but this was indeed the best Thanksgiving dinner I have experienced. 

After dinner we all got on the computer and Skyped my sister in California, Brett.  It was great being able to see/talk to her and my bother-in-law and niece.   It has been a blessing to have a sister so close in Iowa, and a struggle having one all the way in California.  Although visiting is always a nice vacation, Brettie and her family are missed greatly.  (Here’s that shout out Bettie! Love you!)

My Friday began with dragging the sis out of bed at 6am, to get on the road to beat game day traffic.  Again, a photo shoot was a must, although my sister wasn’t thrilled with the idea, she caved.  

I then got to spend my entire day with my boyfriend Joel, my best friend Sarah, and my best friend Abby and her boyfriend Reid.  Cheering on the Huskers at the Colorado game was (much to my dismay) my first Husker game this year!!  But I bundled myself up in layer upon layers and stayed warm and had a great time.

Sarah, Abby, and I

Me and Joel

Saturday began much later, as I took a well deserving opportunity to sleep in.  I spent a ton of time trying to figure out what I would wear to my Out of State Performance and with some opinions via phone by my mom and from Joel, I decided.  I left Lincoln around 4pm and chatted on the phone with my Alabama’s Sweetheart Taylor Yates, and it wasn’t until I got off the phone with her (40 minutes outside of Sioux City) that I realized I had forgotten my cocktail dress for my performance.  With some frantic searching at the local Younker’s, mom and I found a wonderful dress (on sale at that) and I thought my problems had been solved. 

I forgot my hair product.  I forgot my tennis shoes for work Monday.  I forgot my toothbrush and toothpaste (luckily I keep an extra at my sister’s house!)  Mother and I had our fair share of arguments on the drive to Minneapolis, and a fair share of wrong turns on the way home.  By the time we got back to Sioux City after my Out of State Performance, I was eager to get home.  So instead of spending the night in Iowa I packed two pieces of pumpkin pie in some Glad-wear and left town for Lincoln.  I had a half tank of gas and nothing to drink so I pulled over at a gas station to get a redbull…and couldn’t find my debit card.  It was this moment that I nearly lost it. 

I was once asked in an interview, “Many titleholders, especially state title holders, have blogs.  All of them are always positive.  People clearly realize that not everyone is perfect, like these girls are making it seem.  Do you think its okay to include negative things in a blog that everyone can see?”  Folks, this is my negativity coming out right now.  Not everything in the life of a titleholder goes smoothly, just like anyone else.  Thanksgiving weekend was stressful and overwhelming and I take all the blame for it.  It was my decision to cram everything into the weekend that I did and understood that it would be crazy.  And it was.  But just because I’m a titleholder, I’m not excluded from stress or arguments with my mom or forgetful mishaps or complaints.  I am human like everyone else and these things happen.  But a phone call, Christmas lights, a clean house, candles and a hug solved it all.  

And the gratefulness begins.

Through all of this stress I dealt with, I began realizing how many things I have to be thankful for.  And how many people count on my good attitude daily and the smile I wear on my face.  Yes, because I am a real person, a real girl, I suffer real problems, but at the same time, I hold certain expectations of myself to turn those things around as fast as possible.  The week continued with little stresses here and there but it seemed with every stress I had, I was able to see a positive side of the same situation.  I sometimes forget that my behavior affects so many people.  I usually do a great job maintaining my normal carefree, happy, excited-self, but there are times where that fades.  But as the week progressed, my attitude was much better and my appreciation for everyone surrounding me has grown.  I got to spend my Friday night at Beta’s Formal with Joel and then family Christmas Saturday.  In the short amount of time I had to make relationships with everyone this week/weekend, I could see and feel the care in their eyes. 

As Miss Omaha I am representing so many positive programs and organizations…it’s inspirational to tell everyone all the things I get to do (like the Polar Plunge next weekend!) and everything I represent.  I find joy in being a part of such an amazing program.  At this point in my… everything, my heart is overflowing with joy and gratitude.  Despite all the things that have gone wrong, that are going wrong, or that could go wrong, I am in the happiest place I have ever been.  During my entire week last week I felt the need to cry because of my negative stresses, but this morning I fought back tears of joy; in realization that I am loved by those around me and in acknowledgement that the little negatives in life, can’t take away, me.  I’m always going to be who I am just polished at times and crazy at other times. 

Thanks for listening to my complaints, conquers, and sap story.

Youtube adventures of the day: 

 This song is for my Abby.  Cheers to a private laundry party and watching old episodes of GLEE on my own :)

I think this song does a great job in describing my realizations this week.  Please listen & I hope you enjoy.

Sealed with love,
Kayla
Miss Omaha 2011 :)

Out of state performance!!

This particular blog has been mulling around in my mind for an entire week now and I have finally found time to post it!  To all my readers, particularly Rance, here is the blog you’ve been waiting for.  I had quite the adventurous Thanksgiving weekend full of family, food, friends, and traveling.  In the course of my five day holiday, I spent 17 ½ hours driving.  Crazy, yes, but definitely well worth it.  I’m going to leave out a huge chuck of my weekend for another post to follow and focus on my BIG experience on Sunday. 

In September this year, I had the honor of competing at the National Sweetheart Pageant in Hoopeston, Illinois.  I competed with 37 girls from different states and had an amazing time.  I have been trying to stay in contact with many of the girls via phone calls and Facebook creeping.  If part of my daily creep attacks of the Sweetheart girls, I noticed that Miss Minnesota’s Sweetheart, Lauren Johnson(current Miss Twin Cities), was going to be performing at the Mall of America.  I thought to myself…”That’s only seven and a half hours from Lincoln…I wonder when she’s performing, maybe I could go watch!”

So…the adventure starting churning.  I asked Lauren when she’d be performing and told her all about my idea of coming up to visit her and make my first trip to the Mall of America.  She told me she and her sister title holder, Aja Majkrzak, would be performing on November 28^th.  A little side note here: Lauren’s pageant director, Kathy Shellum, commented on my Facebook post and told me she had judged me at Miss Omaha last year and that I should come and perform with her titleholders!! :D  Great idea?  YES!  After working out a few kinks, I had agreed to be at the Mall of America on the 28^th at 11am. 

This was originally supposed to be a trip of my own because I couldn’t find anyone who was willing to ride with me and home, but it turned out that I needed to be in Sioux City (where my big sis Chabree lives) on Saturday, making the 7 ½ hour drive only 5 hours.  And after a little convincing, I was able to talk my mom into making the drive with me.  Let’s just say that 4:45am isn’t usually my typical holiday weekend wakeup call, but in order to get to Minneapolis in time we needed to be on the road at 6am.  I conned mom into driving so I could catch some more shut eye and before I knew it, we were in Minneapolis pulling into the Mall of America parking garage.  A little wardrobe swap in the car and the mounting of my crown and I was set!

Me, Aja & Lauren

Lauren performing. 

I was SO anxious to see Lauren that I nearly screamed when I saw her beautiful face coming around the corner!  After some pictures and catch up we were ready to begin the performance.  Lauren started the show playing the piano, followed by Aja playing the violin. During their performance, I sat in the audience in my crown and sash watching the shoppers showing interest in what was taking place on stage.  One particular shopper stood out to me.  Her name is Ella. 

          Ella was with her dad and grandpa, and I caught her staring with amazement at the two “princesses” on stage.  She looked so eager to run right up on stage to say hello to them.  I got her dad’s attention and after a few minutes of trying to peel her eyes of the stage she turned, looked at my sash and then my crown, and as her eyes grew wider, so did the smile on her face.  It’s these moments that make everything worthwhile for me.  I waved and smiled at her and coaxed her into coming to talk to me.  She told me all about her day, how she was going to go on a ride in the Nickelodeon Universe.  We spent some time talking about her family; she has one brother.  When I asked her if she was older than him or younger than him she responded like this: “I’m older than him…but, but he’s older than me too.”  SO precious!  She told me that her brother was shopping with mom, and I asked if she liked to shop too.    We also counted how many princesses there were and took some pictures too. 

These moments, these little girls, make it so clear of the importance we, as titleholders have.  Ella, among thousands of other girls, looks up to each of us in so many ways.  Seeing the joy in her eyes as I took 10 minutes out of my day to talk to her, is indescribable.  I like to think that this is a moment that she won’t forget for many years.  Her grandpa told me as they were leaving; that she LOVES dressing up like a princess and that spending time with her, really made her day.  She left the rotunda with a smile on her face so large that it lit up the room.  She turned around, ran up to me and said, “It was so nice meeting you!”  She melted my heart.

I went back to watching the performance on stage where Aja and Lauren had switched things up (Aja on piano and Lauren singing).  Lauren had mentioned she hadn’t ever really performed in front of an audience, so I took the liberty in recording it for her. :)  Unfortunately, I can't share that video with you, as my blogger wont allow it...hummph.  But it is beautiful :) 

I was then asked to come on stage and talk a bit about myself and my platform, before we all performed together.  I loved watching the audience and shoppers as I was singing, especially the younger children who got big smiles when I waved to them.  After singing a few Christmas carols the performance was over.  I would have loved to perform more but I still had a great time.  It was lovely meeting Aja, and seeing both Kathy and Lauren again.  The bittersweet moments of goodbyes ended with a small photo shoot and the joys of seeing each other in a little over a MONTH at Miss America in Las Vegas, Nevada!!  WOOOOO!!

Speaking about my platform, Make Music Rock.

Performing with Lauren and Aja.

My beautiful friend, Lauren!

I had a wonderful time I gained experience as well.  I received some helpful critiques and got to do a little shopping.  I must say though, I don’t think I will be making many trips back to the Mall of America…I don’t think it was exactly my cup of tea.  I like the internet, and California, and Denver, Vegas…etc.  But I loved my first trip and am very thankful for my Sweet<3, Lauren, and for the opportunity I had in performing.  Can’t wait to see you in VEGAS!!

The real us :)

In conclusion, as always, I leave you with some videos from YouTube :)

Laughter from Sarah during our study date!
Song obsession of the week...or maybe longer :)

I have been a little loopy this week as the semester is wrapping up.  I think that it's finally getting to me, all the hustle and bustle I do on a daily basis.  This song makes me smile when I'm thinking about all that's good in my life instead of the struggles, even makes me dance :)

And a little Christmas music!

Off to bed, for the beauty sleep I'll need for my exciting weekend.

Until next time,
Kayla
Miss Omaha :)